today was different, bad dreams, rencor, duda. i wake up look around, disgusted i get out of bed and decide to stay away until you leave. it takes you a long time to leave, lately you stay every night, my bed has to be shared now and sometmes i don't want you to stay. i have no idea what i'm doing or why. i shave my innnerthigh for you anyway, for someone. i realize you just appeared and decided to stay and now i am taking a roll in a different direction, it's ok, i'm not complainning but somehow i want it to be over.