Suddenly everything easily became blurry grey,
contagious sadness of the absents,
no flight tkt to Buenos Aires,
no barefoot walking in my mother's magic garden,
a new love in another city,
the expensive artist visa, deadlines, waiting lists, submissions,
bills to pay, toefl, mfa, unfinished projects, late fees,
slow movement, unfocus, inefficient, unproductive,
nothing is really bad or good
nothing is nada