i don't exist like i used to, this city is now completly different now, as all the layers that already melted around me. if at 17 i've viewed myself as i'm now i'll probably be glad as in many ways this is kind of what i wanted. there is still the inconsistence in me, the lack of energy, but in a way everything seems to be now on the right track, and finally, finally i'm with who i wanted to be in what i wanted to be. now i can thank that so many loves before you to prepare myself to you, for you. ............ ...... ..... ........... ..... .... .... i'm not afraid of the winter, not anymore.